You know, to be completely honest I’m not sure.
I’m 57 now, so in 2001 I was 38 years old and at work when it occurred. Or when we got the first news, put it that way. The first building had been hit by a plane, etc etc, we all know the story. Then a short time later, the second building fell. By this time we had erected a portable television on our upper floor for any American patrons who may have been visiting that day (my work is in a museum/heritage attraction). And a short time after that, during lunch to be precise, the word that an estimated 400 firefighters had died in their efforts to save people. Four, hundred, firefighters.
I was stunned, literally stunned, that so many good could have fallen so quickly during a response that was not war. And the world went silent.
Victoria is not a big city, maybe 400,000 people I don’t actually know anymore, but it was still. There was no movement in the skies, no sound of an airplane, anywhere. My nephew was in his helicopter at the time flying hydro lines or something up coast and his control operator came over the radio and just simply said “..get out of the sky, now”. It was raining, as I recall. My partner called out to book a routine appointment to have our boilers cleaned and I could hear him on the phone ... yes, yes, yes it is very terrible... before he quietly hung up the receiver. I looked at him, “she was crying”, he said, and walked away.
For the next days, weeks, months even all that filled the news was the images over an over and over again of the fallen piles and twisted steel. The long lines of emergency crews, dump trucks from all across the country responding to the call, and always the pictures of melted fire rigs and broken helmets. The bodies like sacks of wheat hitting the pavement. Who jumps like that?
I suspect for me, and this is probably why felt so driven to acknowledge it, it was the sheer power of the imagery. I am a very visual person and to be inundated with those raw and wrenching photographs was overpowering. It has nothing to do with politics or religions but everything to do with bravery and sacrifice from the innocent. On a day when they, like me, just went to work.
I’m still stirred when I think of it, and it’s a long time already. My parents did not feel anything of the kind even though they were returning from a vacation and got stranded in Newfoundland when the skies closed. My dad just said “nope, won’t affect my life at all what happened..”, and it didn’t. But I couldn’t get out from under it until I built something. Every time I turned around or caught myself doodling it was always the same vertical lines and tilted floors until finally I said ‘enough!’ and started laying it out. And here we are.
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